Surely to make a great fool and spectacle of yourself for the sake of another is a form of martyrdom.Tonight, I'll add a scene that probably ought not to be taken straight as advice--in context there's more going on in this conversation than might appear at first read--but is fun to think of as such:
No one can love a person who knows a secret about him that he would prefer not to know himself.
Pride is the subtlest of sins, offering the most morally destitute some comfort.
She couldn't help disapproving of people. It seemed to be essential to her sense of identity.
If it is not possible to be free, perhaps to be hidden is the next best thing.
I told my mother with timid spite, hidden terror, and a certain mad braggadocio.
If she was a wife, she was, by conventional standards, a gloriously bad one.
I wondered as I thought of secrets if I might find some release in telling Lili the thing that festered in my soul, and I asked her if she would listen.And if you don't believe in priests, your only option is the wind and the stars.
She said something I found so odd that my vision of the world faintly changed and my despair lessened. If the world was not as I perceived it then it was possible that I was not damned. I felt no great assurance of comfort, but my conviction of evil grew a little less.
She said, "If you have a secret you don't want the world to know you must never tell it except to an enemy. And if you must tell your dearest friend your secret then you must tell others too, for inevitably the world will get to know and you will blame your dearest friend and lose him. So tell him, if you must, but also tell his brother and the butcher and the baker and the candlestick-maker and then you will never know who has betrayed you and you can, to some degree at least, go on loving your friend. If you tell your enemy, your hatred will be even more satisfactorily justified, but the best thing to do is tell the priest. No one else. He won't tell. The trouble is, sometimes people want to be betrayed. It makes them feel more at home and less lonely."